Yep... Just like the title says.

I'm out for a while folks... haven't been doing art at all after I got my job. I'm starting to regret it, and at the same time not minding it anymore. Every time I put a grocery item into a bag I regret not wanting to draw anymore... but then again I want to... but I can't. I don't have time, I don't have the sacrifice... and I don't have satisfaction. The ideas never cease to haunt me, my characters, my stories... they're still there... somewhere. I hope to awaken them somehow sometime, but for the meantime I need to lay low and live like the working ant. The working ant with no life, no soul, just work.
I've always feared when this period would come where I would have to fully dedicate my time to society as means of change. Not saying I don't joke around to try to spice up the boring 8 daily 40+ weekly hours... but the jokes are just jokes, and real life hits... it hits HARD.

I'm raising funds for a very interesting life... something extraordinary will happen in the next couple of months... something that'll change my life as well as someone very dearly to me. With all honesty, I don't know what I'm doing... but it's not knowing that'll get me there. I think.

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As far as art is concerned, I'll just stick around with the random sketches for a while... I'm sick and tired of drawing and fully finishing shit. It's just not for me. It's not satisfying, at least that's what it really felt like... I drew to the point where my art wasn't fun anymore. It was something to do, and look at... and I hate it... When I look at something I draw, I want to be reminded of how much I loved doing it... I don't want to think of how bad it sucked to do, but how great it looks in the end, because in the end (to me) it doesn't matter what it looks like... as long as I feel complete.

Just before I kind of stopped doodling, I was going all out comics and cartoon character-like into my art. Hence my label (comic artist) being pressed into the minds of those who critique my art. To be real honest, I think drawing line work is something that is very dead... I can bring motion into things... but it's not enough... I want to break free.



I wish I could draw like that everyday. Maybe just on the side... and do comics on the other... I don't know, I feel I got a story to tell (everyone does). I was just tired of wrestling with myself to post results here to be compared to everything else. I don't want to be compared, just concealed... just for now.

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If you haven't heard from me lately, don't worry, not even my family has really heard from me in weeks. I haven't really talked to or seen my friends in a while. Everything is a blob of confusion, and it's going to be that way for a while... and in the meantime, all the little free time I have will be dedicated to what makes me feel best, and if you can't guess what that is, just assume.

I heart all of you people who have been checking out my art this far... and all the messages and everything... I'll probably come back and look at what some of you may reply to this... I'm not sure I'll comment though. Too tired. Of typing. Of reasoning. Of pixelated nothing.

here's a pretty cool fan art someone did from me...
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Lucas out.